Steven was horribly sick during the banquet and said he had to force himself through the night :( I felt bad. He said Alicia played a trick on him and told him I was there. Hehe, I called her a punk for that! He was still sick yesturday but I pray things are going better for him.
*sigh*
I don't know whats wrong with me lately. Life has gotten blah. There is no pazaz. I guess there doesn't have to be all the time. I love being at church and I love being around friends. But I'm home by myself a lot and I don't like it. Even if I had a car, most of my friends would be in school. I don't know. I'm trying to make the best of it. I'm not doing bad, I'm just so bored and burnt out. I'm always tired too. My sleeping is way out of whack.
The whole Steven situation adds to it. I just wish I could be with him. Make it official. But I know I can't. I hate the idea of me leaving and him possible dating another girl. I'm willing to wait for him, but I don't want to lose him. It can be scary to think about. Thats why I shouldn't think about it, heh.
I asked him if I was going to be able to see him on Valentine's day. He said he would try to work something out. Hmmm. My brother said he would be upset if Steven didn't do anything for me on Valentine's day. My brother has to much of my Dad in him sometimes! Hehe.
I remember a year ago. My now ex was "to sick" to talk to me on Valentine's day. Isn't it ironic (notice the sarcasim in this sentance) that he wasn't to sick to call Kristy!! I'm so glad that Bryan is out of my life. This year is going to be much better :) Even if I don't get to see much of Steven. Just the fact that I know he really cares about me makes me happy. It makes me happy but that doesn't mean I'm not confused! LoL.
Enough of my ramblings.
I got to talk to Alida on messenger today :) It was fun. She seems like such a sweet person. I got a phone call during out conversation though and it lasted a lot longer then planned. I'm sorry about that Alida, please forgive me for it!
Well Good Night everyone and please get some spray for the bed bugs. God bless you all :)
~Megan~
Happy Birthday To My Mom!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, and this Joe Millionare show....Driving me nuts! Can we just get to the final show already? LoL!