I was reading some diaries on the other site where I keep one. My best friend has one on it. I read hers and then a girl that reads hers all the time.
I am realizing a sickening truth. It makes me so sick to think about it. So many girls are raped...and we don't even know it. I heard a thing in my psych class that odds are a person who is sexually abused will be a preditor. I totally do NOT agree. I know so many girls that have been raped (I am one of the very very few people that know about what has happened to many of them) and I know they would not do that to any one else. I think its just kept a secret. It makes you feel so shameful and dirty. It makes you feel like you don't deserve anything because your so disgusting. I know, I went through those feelings.
I know why I have been called to be an Inner City Missionary. I have to save our kids. I have to save our girls. My heart is breaking right now. How could people be so cruel?
I know I can't change every person. But if I can help one person....one! I will be happy. If I can just be a comfort to someone who is hurting so deep withing, I will be satisfied.
We had a foster child and her step-father was teaching her brother to rape her. Her 5 year old brother!!!!! Her step-dad told her brother to walk into her room with no pants on and get on top of her.
I am so sick to my stomache.
People have to know about this. People have to realise how serious this is! Teens and kids need to be made aware of this problem and to speak up. They need some one who cares about them who will let them cry and tell their stories. They need someone who will hug them and let them know what real love is all about. Not this fake love. Not this love with strings attached. Not this love that makes them curl up at night and want to die. Not the love that gives them nightmares and night and huants their day dreams. These people need to find out what true loves is.
God, let me be such an awesome councel to this children of yours. Let me shine your light and give them hope. Let me tell them all about you. Let me tell them they are wonderful people.
I live for God and in doing so I live for them.