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I feeling like yelling into a pillow right now. I hate having serious conversations on-line because half of the conversation is missing (the non-verbal part). I'm talking to Steven again about my diary entry. Its frustrating because on-line its all up to interpretation. You cant see their body language or hear their expression. Hes back on-line. He got disconnected. ANOTHER problem with on-line chats. I am so unsettled about things with him. So incredibly unsettled. When I get into a convo on-line that I'm not comfortable I get really cold and shakey. So right now my hands are numb. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I wish I could talk to him in person and I know I will be fine. I saw him at church but everyone was around so we couldn't talk about anything really. RAHHH! I don't hate whats going on with him. Please don't confuse that. I know that all relationships and friendships have things they have to work out and this is just part of the process. I wish I could know the end result though. I hate the fact that I cant have a serious face to face talk with him.
God give me stength.